Close But No…Offer
Today I received two more rejection letters, one from a place that would have kept me in the South (sorry, Mom & Dad) and another from my #1 choice in independent publishing: Graywolf Press. The first one was easy to take—a professorship I didn’t fully want because of its full-time course load. The second one hit hard.

I stood from my desk and didn’t want to think about what to do next. Before I knew it, I was dashing upstairs, changing into bike clothes, and pedaling hard toward the head of Wallowa Lake in under five minutes.
A twelve-mile ride ought to do anybody good, especially the way I was feeling in that moment. I made it there in record time, and felt a sudden chill come over me as I realized a storm was rolling in; gray clouds, a few drops of rain, and the smell of smoke from nearby chimneys. It’s a different world there at the head of the lake, tall evergreens blocking sunlight and a constant breeze rumbling down the mountains in competition with wind-tunnel breezes of the lake. I hopped off my bike to check out the old dance hall and felt the eerie calls of times past. Still, no matter how hard I pedaled, no matter how cold I felt, no matter how much I tried to lose myself in the wood grain of that haunted old building, the Graywolf letter stayed on the tip of my tongue.
On the way home, I had to try and beat the storm. I looked up at the sky, a bipolar array of blue and gray, and hit it hard for the remaining six miles. With the raindrops at my back and the lakeshore straight ahead, for a brief moment there was nothing in between but the beating of a writer’s heart.

New York City agents, here I come, fool or no fool. If a string of “No’s” comes back, it won’t be anything I haven’t heard before and I’ve got other places to submit in mind should that occur. Meantime, I’ve hired a publicist to draft my pitch and marketing scheme, targeted a list of top 10 agents (all recommended from direct connections), a back up 13 different agents, and then a list of university press book prizes to submit following all that. Here goes everything!
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I think your "here goes everything!" attitude is inspiring. What I see in the crafts world is that if you are making nice work, AND working hard to get it out there- you will succeed. Surely that carries over. You deserve success- I'm so glad you're keeping at it despite the set backs.
(xoxo)
Yes! What she said! I DON'T like the fact that these presses aren't taking the leap to publish your amazing work about a not-easy topic (buncha wusses!), I DO like, in a major way, your diamond-strength resilience and determination in the the face of it. You will succeed, not just because your work is brilliant but because you. are. unstoppable. Here goes everything yes! You. GO.
Inspiring? Heck yeah! You go girl!
Katey – I'm just entering the blog world, and yours is one of the first ones I've read! And it's super inspiring 🙂 I'm just beginning the submission process – my goal is 100 rejection letters by Sept. 1. I'm submitting individual poems, a series of 20 poems for a chapbook, and this coming year will be about working to revise and add to my thesis to make it a full-length, publishable manuscript. And this is just what I needed to read to help get me started. Someone big is going to scoop you up. And we will celebrate about it this summer!
nice
that's the kt I know