Something I’m Not in Charge Of
When you’re self-employed, those moments of not being in charge can never be underestimated. Day in and day out, you are your own boss and your own “employee of the month.” You’re constantly balancing those two roles. Your financial stability, your professional development, and your professional reputation depend upon your ability to manage both roles effectively. At the end of the day, you can step away–something I’ve been working on by trying not to work after dinnertime–but if you’re like me, you then find yourself “in charge” of what do to with your evening. I read. I cook. I read some more. I try to stay away from email as it will pull me back into work mode. But even these things, at least right now, require conscious shaping and effort. Goodness! That book tour gave me some sort of multi-tasking-high-alert-obsessive-effectiveness disease!
I need a cure. If my martial arts instructor hadn’t moved to Florida, I never would have stopped training. And while I’m quite disciplined at my own exercise plan each week, that’s also exactly the problem–because I’m the one in charge of that discipline and after being in charge all day, the last thing I need is more of it. What can fill this space–Soccer? Training for a 10K? If I lived in a city, I could join a rec atheltics league. Perhaps I need some sort of extreme yoga? Whatever it is, it needs to involve community and accountability. Come wintertime, the two trail crews I volunteer for are really good for that. But here, now–what is there? I’ve made a goal to try and find out.