Ok. This is what I want. I’m putting it out there. Carving it into the cosmos. And then letting it go. Hello world! I deserve the best:
1. Someone who understands this quote and can live up to it:
“Don’t come at me with the sour-cream smile. Come at me as if I were worth your life—the life we make together. Take me like a turtle whose shell most be cracked, whose heart is ice, who needs your heat. Love me like a warrior, sweat up to your earlobes and all your hope between your teeth. Love me so I know I am at least as important as anything you have ever wanted.” (Dorothy Allison)
2. Someone who can sing to me like Josh Ritter in the song “Kathleen,” saying:
“All the other girls here are stars, you are the northern lights!”
3. Someone who “has their own thing” and therefore understands the quiet, solitude, and faith necessary for the writing life.
4. Someone who is balanced.
Meanwhile: I’m here. I’m trying to publish a book and save the world by being a nice person (a slow and steady form of peace activism). Sometimes I sing with children. Their innocence and strength of heart fills me up so fully that my gratitude for life comes out in tears.